I am on the wrong pills so I'm getting new ones. I have never been on the right pills, but we keep trying new ones.
I used to worry that pills would make me be a person I'm not or make me feel something inauthentic to who I am but I find, or I hope, that the right pills will actually make me more authentically myself. When I get pills that work, and sometimes they work for a little while, I am more in touch with that real me who's living there under the stacks and piles of detritus I've accumulated or have been handed to me and the right pills help me get there.
I also think about that line from Flash Gordon because of course I do and I have a fantasy of somebody sneaking into a football press conference dressed up like Ming the Merciless and asking some coach or whoever if his men are on the right pills and then, as they wrestle him away from the microphone, you can hear him suggest executing their trainer. But that's ridiculous. He wouldn't get anywhere near the press conference dressed like Ming the Merciless.
It also reminds me of one time a new friend was telling me about where he worked and we were looking at the website for his company and his boss was a thin, bald white man. And I said "he looks like Ming the Merciless." My friend then took over the computer and turned it back around and there was a picture of his boss at a company Halloween party dressed like Ming the Merciless.
I used to care a lot about how many people will or won't read my work. I would have many sleepless nights over it! But I have never had an audience and it hasn't stopped me yet. There are many other obstacles, most of them inside me, that stop me.
I love reading your writing.
I am on the wrong pills so I'm getting new ones. I have never been on the right pills, but we keep trying new ones.
I used to worry that pills would make me be a person I'm not or make me feel something inauthentic to who I am but I find, or I hope, that the right pills will actually make me more authentically myself. When I get pills that work, and sometimes they work for a little while, I am more in touch with that real me who's living there under the stacks and piles of detritus I've accumulated or have been handed to me and the right pills help me get there.
I also think about that line from Flash Gordon because of course I do and I have a fantasy of somebody sneaking into a football press conference dressed up like Ming the Merciless and asking some coach or whoever if his men are on the right pills and then, as they wrestle him away from the microphone, you can hear him suggest executing their trainer. But that's ridiculous. He wouldn't get anywhere near the press conference dressed like Ming the Merciless.
It also reminds me of one time a new friend was telling me about where he worked and we were looking at the website for his company and his boss was a thin, bald white man. And I said "he looks like Ming the Merciless." My friend then took over the computer and turned it back around and there was a picture of his boss at a company Halloween party dressed like Ming the Merciless.
I used to care a lot about how many people will or won't read my work. I would have many sleepless nights over it! But I have never had an audience and it hasn't stopped me yet. There are many other obstacles, most of them inside me, that stop me.
What opera?
Turandot